Tuesday, April 14, 2015
This day two years ago I felt alive again for the first time since my youngest child stopped being alive with me. She would have been exactly 2.5 years old the day after Nathan Evan, her namesake was born. I am so thankful every day for this rainbow child of mine who saved my life.
Today we celebrate Nathan with a quiet family party. Hot dogs on a campfire. Chips. Some veggies with ranch dip. Cause ranch dip is this little guys favourite thing to eat.
And cake of course.
I wish I knew what Eva would have loved to eat. Besides breastmilk. I can't wait to find out in heaven one fine day.
May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He shine his face upon you and give you peace dear readers.
All my love,
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Friday, April 3, 2015
We went to a Passover Seder today.
Unexpectedly the seat right across from me between Josie and my mom was empty.
The plate stayed untouched. The bitter herbs wilted. Eva should have been there.
I practically saw her if I squinted.